the holidays are not a nice place in bananaland.
also it is not nice to be scheduled at 8. especially when you wake up (after a couple hours of sleep) sick.
when i get up this morning, i am not happy and not well, so i call the store to let them know i’ll be late, and i am immediately subjected to a tyrade by my manager, who we will only refer to as the asshole. let’s be clear that i wasn’t calling in or trying to get out of my shift, only saying i’d be a bit late. he went on and on about how i have a pattern of being late, and while that is true technically, i have only been a few minutes late (only once) at all since i’ve been back in town. yes i know it hasn’t been that long since i’ve been back, but i have also been a good worker and the token bitch to put extra hours or whatever-the-fuck else onto since.
like yesterday. when 9 people called out. i came in early and stayed late. so i wasn’t calling out, just going to be a bit late this morning. it turned out to be very late, because i had to stop on the way to work because i had to be sick, and in my rush, i forgot my wallet at home.
when i get to the store, the fucking doors aren’t even open! and the asshole tries to tell me he couldn’t open the store without me. bullshit. he could’ve clearly run the register for like the three people that were there at that time. but no, he had paperwork. that couldn’t wait, i guess.
normally, i would’ve been very apologetic and understanding, but after the tyrade over the phone, i was impervious to bullshit, and could not give a goddamn what he was going through. he then took me to the office (so still there was no one to work the register at this point, because this too, couldn’t wait) to talk me in circles.
if that wasn’t bad enough, the asshole called the store in asheville to tell all this to my manager there! wtf?! and was pleased to tell me that if this continued to be a problem they wouldn’t take me back because i would be fired from the store here. fuck you. now the only thing they have heard about me is something bad, that i had no control over to boot. nothing good that i’d been doing since i’ve been back. how am i supposed to do damage control on that? i can’t call up for no reason to explain a situation that doesn’t even fucking concern them! that makes no sense. it is a blatant slap in the face.
so at this point i’m wicked pissed, and ready to fucking snap. so i told him i would need to be leaving early today, and he told me he’d see what they could do. so i’m at the front working and getting calls of people calling out with no ramifications and no bullshit, and i’m stading there getting completely shit on for sucking it up and coming in!
after a couple hours when my break time came up, i decided i was done being shit on, and told the manager on duty that i would need them to work something out, because i was not going to be staying for my whole shift. she said there weren’t enough people, to which i told her to keep that fact in mind over the next few hours every time they come at me for stupid shit, seeing that i am sticking it out.
when i get back, they let me know i could leave early, and for the rest of the day i made it a point to do no more than was necessary to get by to make it clear that i can not be fucked around and fucked over continually without consequence.
and yes i’m still mad. i know it’s dramatic, but the thing is – i’ve been really trying to do right by these assholes and shit is never enough. i try to be amiable and help everyone out at work however i can, and there’s no love for any of that from these managers (with one exception, who of course wasn’t there today). so i’m through being a good person. i’m there to get paid, and if they want to treat me like that, they will catch it right back. i am not a good person to make angry.
