ok, so i have got to change some things. i don’t want to go into details for fear of being dramatic, but i really have to change some things. it’s not pretty. but who knows, maybe i can. it is the start of a new year. that seems like the perfect time.
what a week. a lot of realizations. and not much time to make sense of them.
and yes, it’s 2:30 something and i have to work at 12, and i’m beyond tired. the christmas craziness has turned me into a delerious mess. i have no idea what’s going on. but arguably that is the best way to get through the holidays…
things have been pretty good, though, actually. i have been working a lot, but it’s been good. people are not cranky, which is good for me and them. i really have a zero tolerance for bullshit, and i would be incapable of dealing with that in an appropriate manner. i seriously might cuss someone out if they get hella fresh while i’m a hostage at the br. i’ve gotten to spend some time with my family, too, which has been nice. wrapping gifts and decorating and watching movies and all that holiday stuff has really been fun.
i should be in bed, but my mind is racing and i can’t sleep. this is will regret later, i’m sure.
for now though, i am listening to new esthero songs on her myspace (which of course are fucking amazing!), drinking wine, and watching old sex and the city episodes in the background.
how happy am i not to be in school right now. it’s a very good thing.
